HELP!!!!!!!!!

I need a way to tone down way too spicy hot chili.

Sheltered

Movie weekend.

Watched The Constant Gardener. It held my interest but I have to say that I wasn't that impressed with it or Rachel Weiss. Oscar nominee? eh.

Watched Rent. I have to say that for some reason I didn't think it would be like all musical. I realize the play was but I thought, for whatever reason, they'd have more dialogue and less singing in the movie. But I loved it. It gave me the good cry I've been waiting for. Shawn was sleeping. I have no idea how he slept through all my sobbing. I found myself wondering if people really live like that. Are there really people out there that get their heat shut off and can't pay the rent? Well, obviously I realize there are but it made me realize that maybe I take too much for granted. Maybe my life doesn't suck as bad as I think it does. Have I struggled to pay bills? For sure. But I've been sheltered and protected my whole life. If I was a struggling artist, I feel pretty assured that my heat wouldn't get shut off and my mortgage would be paid. You know?

Watched Hotel Rwanda. Let me tell you that the reason I watched it was because Joaquin Phoenix was in it. Shallow? Absolutely. I've been wanting to see it for that reason and that reason alone. He wasn't in it very much and by the time he left the hotel, I wasn't even thinking about him anymore. How is it that this happened in 1994 and I had no idea it was going on? Over one million people were killed in three months. Tutsi? Hutu? I still don't even know what that means. All I can tell you is that the Hutus wanted to kill off all the Tutsis. Watching that movie made me realize how sheltered I am. I know I'm not alone. I know there are others out there who haven't seen this movie who still have no idea what happened in Rwanda just over 10 years ago. It's hard to believe. How did we become so sheltered that we don't have any idea what happens to people outside of our country? I don't like reading the paper or watching the news because it depresses me. How shallow is that?


I am lucky to have the security and shelter that I have. I live my life in my own little protected bubble. I like it here. So tonight? I'm watching Saw 2. I'm hoping it won't make me think too much.

Never in my life have I ever had a more fitting icon.

Ice Dancing

The Bulgarians, Albena Denkova & Maxim Staviski, were robbed. I am in love with them. If I ever have children, I'm naming them Albena and Maxim. Okay, maybe not, but Maxim is a kick ass name. I was bitching about it all night. Lying in bed, lights are out, we settle into our spoon, and I say, "You know, that really pisses me off. That other team, whoever it was that won bronze, I don't even remember where they were from, but they were put me to sleep boring." Shawn says, "Write a letter or let it go."

They were robbed. Robbed. *sigh*

oooh. I just found an article. Here's a quote from it:

"Bulgaria's best skating duo Albena Denkova and Maxim Staviski deserved to be on the Olympic podium, Evgeniya Karnolska, President of the Bulgarian Skates Federation commented from Turin.
Karnolska, who was in the jury, also said that everyone was very disappointed from the fifth place of Albena and Maxim in the figure skating final at the 20th Olympic Games in Turin. "We will ask for videotapes of their presentation, but there is nothing that could be done. Albena and Maxim's performance was brilliant. I am really sorry that my colleagues decided so," Karnolska added.
In her words the Bulgarians could have been third, "because they deserved it." "Bulgaria's presentation was unique," Karnolska also said, pointing out that the other pairs "were not able to impress the audience."

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